Last night was Kylie's first night in her crib in her room!
I had a much harder time with it than she did. It wasn't that she is growing up that had me upset, it's that I was so worried that she would be scared waking up in there, alone, in the dark.
I went to put her to bed and I just held her close and cried! It was dark and didn't let her see any tears, because I didn't want to scare her, but I couldn't help it.
She cried once after I left the room, so I went in to console her. We are trying to encourage self-soothing, but I did end up picking her up from her crib and nursing her a little. She relaxed, so I put her back down and then we watched from the monitor as she fell asleep.
I told Robert, here I am, so worried that she will wake up scared, but she is perfectly content right there, because she feels completely secure and doesn't know yet that there is ever anything to be afraid of. She did great and we are so proud of her.
Then the thunderstorms started, the very, very loud, bright thunderstorms. I was jumping at the loud clashes of thunder; Kylie was sleeping through it all.
I laid awake watching the monitor anytime I heard a peep out of her. Finally, an hour or so later, I decided to turn off the video screen so I could sleep. I just pretended like she was in the pack and play next to me and I was able to relax and sleep until she woke me up at 4am!
Her first night by herself in her own room was a success!! Yay, Kylie the big girl!